Blog Post #11

I think my personality consists of organizational qualities, outgoing, responsible, open-minded, and caring. I think that all of these are positive. Being organized can never hurt you. I love knowing where everything is and planning out details so that you know exactly what’s going on. Organizing actually relaxes me and I like doing it. Being outgoing allows me to make a lot of new friends and just meet new people in general. I think life would be boring not going out and meeting new people. I am very responsible. People can count on me to get things done and I think that is something that everyone would like in a person. To know that they can trust them to get done what needs to get done. I think being open-minded to new and different things is a very good thing. Not only because doing new things can be fun and exciting but also because it just brings a little more variety to your life. It allows you too see new things or people without judging all the time therefore making new friends. I think because I’m caring I have a lot of people who trust me and I have a lot of friends that care for me in return. However, I do have some not so positive personality traits. I’m am 100% a perfectionist. Yes in ways that may be nice but it really just causes me stress that is unnecessary. I always want to do my best or be the best. I like getting the best grades and winning. I can’t say enough how much I get stressed out about trying to be perfect all the time, which I’m not so then I stress out even more. I’m also very analytical and I worry a lot. I think way too much into stupid things that I shouldn't even be wasting my time thinking about, like seriously the dumbest things go through my head. I’m constantly thinking about them and worrying about them which causes me more stress. I also at times may be a little short-tempered. This usually only comes out with certain people but having a short temper can never be good.

I think it depends on the situation whether I’m optimistic or pessimistic. Sometimes I can be very optimistic but other times very pessimistic. But I think more often I’m probably a little more pessimistic. Not bad, but usually when it comes to situations where I have to count on other people, I always prepare myself for if they wouldn’t follow through with what they were supposed too. It just makes my life a little more stressful because it makes me worry more. When it comes to me counting on myself in things such as events in a track meet, I’m very optimistic. I tell myself that I can win and I think that helps a lot. I think a lot of my success has come from me envisioning myself winning and being optimistic about it.

One of my traits that change is my temperament. Like I said before some people I just don’t have very much patients for. But for most people in most situations I have all the patients in the world. Some people just rub me the wrong way and it doesn’t take much for me to get annoyed or angry. My sister is one of these people and at times so I my boyfriend. This change is adaptive because as the people around me change my personality may change too. Another one of my traits that change is my Motivation trait. When it comes to school, sports and things like that I am very motivated. I’ll be the first one done. But sometimes there are times when I am so lazy the little things like getting off the couch suck. This depending on the type of situation I’m in has different personality traits. So I guess in the times where I need to be motivated I am but when I don’t really need to be I’m not at all.

When I was younger I remember this one time when I was talking about how much I didn’t like one of my classmate’s outfits but I really wanted it for myself. Now I know it was just jealousy but it was my reaction formation defense mechanism. I was expressing my feelings opposite of what I was really feeling inside. Another time I was playing dodge ball in phy. Ed. And this kid smoked me in the back of the head with a ball so then I went and whipped the ball at someone else harder than I needed too. This was showing displacement by shifting my aggressive impulse to something else less threatening than the thing that actually caused my aggression. When I was in 7th grade I missed a day of school the day before a test. While I was gone my teacher did a little review for it. When I came back the next day and took the test I failed it. I blamed it on the teacher for giving the other kids answers during the review while I was gone. This was showing rationalization by me trying to find other reasons to justify why I failed the test rather than just owning up to the real reason.